Ready.... Set..... Jump!

          As a child I always had this love for adventure, whether it be cliff jumping, roller coasters, or simply hiking a mountain, But hey forget about the trails, if your going to hike might as well bush whack. I remember one of the most adventurous things I ever did growing up was bungee jumping …. And boy was that a leap of faith. In those few seconds of free fall a million things went flying through my mind. “What am I doing!” “I am going to die.”, “if God had intended people to jump off of bridges He would have given us wings to fly.” I even had enough time to replay the Oprah special I had watched about a guy who got the bungee cord wrap around his neck. Not a comforting thought, as you realize that there is absolutely nothing you can do since your already free falling…. Yep pretty sure I squeezed in a few prayers as well in those first 12 seconds of the jump. But it was a leap of faith, now your probably curious as to why I am rambling on about bungee jumping. As I am sitting here comfortably at my computer desk for one of the last times before this great adventure begins I can’t help but feel the same way. I am about to set off for the States (with the hopes to end up in Haiti) on a adventure with Jesus and some friends I met at YWAM. We really have no idea where we are going, we are simply just going to go where ever we feel the Lord has called us to go, to meet who ever, pray for whoever, and to speak to whoever. I feel like I am standing on the platform peering over the edge, seconds from jumping. I am excited, freaked out of my mind, yet as each second ticks away I have this sense of peace, and I know that once I jump, just like when I went bungee jumping, the first few seconds are going to be like a whirl wind, but once you come up from the first bounce I know that there will be peace. So far in my short stay in Vancouver, with the same friends I saw God move in ways that I can’t even begin to explain, I saw the Holy Spirit touch people lives, God even provided a granola bar from a completely empty box, just for one man, who was cold and hungry. The part that really blew me away, was that the man smiled and said “This is my favourite.” God simply did that out of love. I always have this fear that the human part of me will creep in and try and live in the spot light that God has placed to show His glory, I humbly admit that I am nothing without my Saviour, and when God does things like heal someone or make a granola bar multiply just so He can show someone whom sociality has condemned that he is loved, I can’t help but feel humbly honoured that Jesus has asked me to simply be along for the journey across the States, simply to spend time with Him, and to see the people He loves and long to be in relationship with. I can already picture it in my mind, Him bringing me up to a person and saying “ You have no clue why I love this person, but you will.” and giving me a nudge to sit down and talk to them simply to see what He has on His heart for them. Now…. Even though there may be a bit of a free fall where I feel that I am about to loose everything that makes sense, and live in a way that the world says is crazy, I can‘t help but feel it is right for me in this moment of life. Even though we may not have very many plans, or even a clue as to how this is all going to happen, I am comforted with the thought that I don’t think Jesus made many plans, He just went where the Father told Him to walk, and many times that was among those who were outcast and thought poorly of, and for such a time as this, God has called me to live like this. As stand upon the edge and start to lean forward until the grasp of gravity take me away, I can’t help but think, this is going to be quite the adventure, I am ready to fly.

true Love?

    Reading the title of this post, may have made you wonder what on earth an 18year old girl would post about love. Well I will put your mind at ease, this is not about a silly crush, and no, this is not about the latest hot guys on TV. Tonight I was sitting at the computer when I had these thoughts come racing into my mind.What is my goal in life? what am I trying to do? what's important to me? Why Go back to and orphanage in Haiti? What am I really called to do? then this thought , almost like a soft whisper, slowly filled all my thoughts and questions. I am called  simply to love God, and to love others. all of a sudden life seemed to seem so simple. But do I do that, that is my question. Our world has love upside down! the world says "Love is for you!"the World says " Love is something that makes you feel good, makes you feel special, love is something that you get from a person, love is about sex. Love is about being happy." But is this really true love? Love is patient, love is kind, it is slow to anger, there is more from 1 Corinthians 13,  but the one I want to focus on is love is not self seeking. Love is not self seeking. I am called to love the Lord with all my hear soul and mind, I am called to love other. not for me, but simply because I have been loved and redeemed by God, and as a Christian that is what I am called to do.there is no agenda in the love of God, and there should be no agenda in our love. Its so easy to say, yet sometimes so hard to live out. But that's the way I want to live.  Love has been so twisted by the human race,  Can we redeem love?